So frustrated

Today is six weeks since Jenna was born, and I still haven't had a period. We have to wait two to three cycles before we can try again, and if I don't have a period, I can't get to that point.

I want to be pregnant again by my due date. I know another baby will not bring Jenna back or replace her, but I want to do something to fill these arms that feel so empty.

I'm doing everything right, too. One of things to help those with PCOS is to lose weight. Today, I weighed and I'm halfway to my first goal. I've lost 33 pounds. I'm taking 1000 milligrams of Metformin twice a day. I've started taking my prenatal vitamins, and I've started taking extra folic acid.

I'm exercising every day, but not over-exercising. I know that over-exercising can keep you from having a period, but that isn't the case here. I know normal is anything between four and eight weeks, but I'm just so ready for it to get here.

Not only that, I have been feeling like I was going to start my period for the last two weeks. I get that crampy, headachey feeling, just like it always was, but nothing.

After I have my period, I'm going to start taking my temperature again, even though we will not be trying then. I just want to get used to doing it again. I won't use my fertility monitor, though. I will wait until the next cycle for that. When I don't get pregnant that cycle, I'll call the doctor and have her give me a prescription for Clomid.

I know it sounds strange to wish for your period to arrive, but I really do.