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Thursday, July 2, 2009

First big purchase

I've been diapers for this baby since our 12 week ultrasound and bloodwork came back normal. I've got four packs of newborn diapers and am going to start buying size ones next. I also bought a three pack of BPA glass-free bottles, just in case breastfeeding doesn't work out. We also bought a little stuffed monkey and a t-shirt for the baby while we were on vacation.

Brian told me the other day he saw a circular from a store where we want to buy our travel system. We wanted a Winnie the Pooh one, and even though it wasn't the exact same brand as the one we had looked at it, it was made by Disney and featured Winnie the Pooh. I decided to go look at it. I went today, and while I was there, I purchased a black and sage diaper bag for the baby.

It's just as nice as the original brand we wanted and is nice and sturdy. It's gotten good reviews. The price is right, too.

I wasn't able to buy it today because Brian had the debit card, but I am going tomorrow to get it. I've been fine buying diapers, but buying a major purchase is really bothering me.

I know this is silly, but I'm almost afraid if I buy it, I'm going to "jinx" the pregnancy. We bought a pack and play when we were pregnant with Jenna, but that was the only thing we bought. I bought it and then we found out she was sick.

Now, I know it's silly. Buying that pack and play early didn't make Jenna sick. She already even before she was conceived, because Trisomy 18 is caused by either a defective egg or sperm, but it's still scary.

I'm going to do my best and push that fear aside. I'll buy the travel system for the new baby. I can't wait until s/he is born to buy anything. I have to prepare ahead. It's just hard when you are so nervous and paranoid.

1 comment:

Hollie said...

I felt the same way, but I promise it gets easier with each purchase!!

I don't think twice about it anymore, and it's such an awesome feeling to be able to walk in somewhere with such confidence and do something like that. It may seem silly to someone else, but to us, I think it's a huge milestone for us to overcome!

I just know that your and your little one are going to be just fine! It's going to be hard making that first big purchase, but once you do it, you'll feel so much better about things. It's like a small weigh comes off of your shoulders with each thing you buy!!