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Wednesday, April 1, 2009

My mom guessed it

Today, after I finished at my part-time job, I had to go to Wal-Mart to pick up a few things. My mom works there (she's been there for nearly 25 years. I don't know how she's done it), and she saw me. We were talking, and I started feeling nauseaus. I guess I was even turning green.

She guessed that I was pregnant. She said she had been thinking that I was because I was kind of secretative about my doctor's appointment last week. I told her we were planning to wait until we had the testing done, and she said she just knew everything was going to go all right this time.

Of course, she said that last time, too. She truly believed Jenna wouldn't have Trisomy 18. In fact, when I called her to tell her the news, I said, "Momma, she has it."

And her words were, "Who has what?" She just did't allow herself to even think about a positive diagnosis.

I've told her not to tell anyone, and she better not. Of course, she has a huge mouth, so I'm expecting the whole family to know by the weekend.

But, I've been thinking. What does it matter if everyone knows? It's not going to stop something from happening. This baby is either going to have Trisomy 18, or s/he's not. The truth is, there is nothing I can do to affect the outcome of that now. So, what does it matter if I tell people? I don't really believe in jinxing something.


Hollie said...

After we lost Cameron, I always said that I would wait until I was showing to tell anyone. But, the more I thought about it, the sillier the idea became.

Our words will not have an effect on how our pregnancy goes.

If we are meant to have healthy babies this Summer/Fall (which I completely believe we are), then we will, and nothing we say will change that! That is why we told right away! We were excited, and wanted everyone to share it with us from the start.

Beth said...

I think this baby's life should be celebrated as much as possible! Isn't that what we wish for the babies we lost? I can understand wanting to keep it private, but just think about all of the people who will be excited for you.

Baby Dennison said...

My computer has been broken for the past couple of weeks so I have just now heard your news. I am so happy for you. Jenna and my boy Wyatt had the same due date. I started following your blog from the December '08 board from babycenter and although I have never before commented (what could I possibly say?) I have been with you every step of the way. Jenna has been and will continue to be in my prayers! I know you are not that big into religion but it is the only thing I could do that felt like something. I burst into tears when I read that you were again with child and had to spend quite a bit of time assuring my husband that everything was OK. I am so happy for you and await every post with excitement! Your internet family is with you!