Feeling alone and without choices?

Several weeks ago, when I first found out Jenna was sick, I was given a short list of options. I could travel to Atlanta or wait it out. What kind of options were those?

After the fiasco in Atlanta, I felt even more alone and without choices. Where were the people like me who wished they could spare their child the pain and suffering of Trisomy 18 or some other fatal diagnosis but couldn't because of state law? I wanted to talk to them because I felt so alone, but I couldn't find anyone. Most people who wanted to end their pregnancy early were able to, and the same went for those who were carrying to term.

But, me, I wasn't doing what I wanted. I was floating in a sea of never ending confusion and guilt, confusion because I wanted to end the pregnancy to keep Jenna from suffering and guilt because I wanted to end a much-wanted pregnancy. Where were my choices? Isn't the freedom of choice having the choice to decide between having an abortion and the choice not to?

I don't ever want anyone to have to go through that again. No one should ever feel that alone and helpless, as though their hands are tied behind their backs and something is being forced down their throat.

I'm thinking of starting a Web site for people who were in my situation. However, I don't know how many women have actually been there. If you are reading this and have been in this position, please let me know. I really need to know how many people would support a board like this. It wouldn't have to be just for Trisomy 18; it could include any fatal pre-natal diagnosis, such as Triploidy, Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome, Down Syndrome, amniotic band syndrome, etc.

So, if you have ever wanted to end a pregnancy because of a fatal pre-natal diagnosis but couldn't due to state law, insurance issues, travel issues, etc., please, please let me know. I'm really interested in doing something to keep women like us from feeling so alone.